today is a gift

I woke up this morning thinking what a beautiful day. It was raining outside of my window and it had not rain for days so it was a beautiful sight. As I drove to work I prayed. As I prayed thanking God for this day I realized all that it meant. I was given this day to grow, expand, and create.
This day was a gift to me and I just came to realize that. this day was a gift to me and I just came to realize that. I know that everyday is a gifts, and I am thankful everyday for it. For some reason this day stands out special.
I know I cannot take anything with me but I sure can take my memories. My memories are also a gift. Believe me I know this because I do not always have a good memory. My short-term memory has not ever been really good. As I get older I realize that I remember less and less in my short-term memory. I know there are memory exercises that you can do but that is for long-term memory. Short-term memory is a whole different ballgame.
You know what I mean, the times you are supposed to put something on that list and by the time you get to the list you do not remember what it was you were supposed to put on the list. when you walk through a door and you realize that you do not remember why you walk through that door I know they say these things happen with age but you have to realize, I am only 48.
My grandmother on my mother's side had Alzheimer's. I am constantly worry that the genetics were passed down. All of my family has bad short-term memory. So it is not anything new in the family to be affected by this. But since we do have bad memories, I think we are candidates for the Alzheimer's disease. Of course my mother is 75 and she still has all her faculties. This does give me hope. But it can also skip a generation and therefore lies my worries.
These words are insignificant the really. All of my family seems to how to write those lists. If we didn't know how to write the list, then that would be the worried.
I am writing this blog from my phone so if anything goes wrong, it is because I am on speaker alphabet for the phone and I am talking to it I am writing this blog from my phone so if anything goes wrong, it is because I am  Talking instead of writing. I don't know about you but I write much better than I speak. I am at work so I will close. I just want you to remember but today is a gift and so are the memories that you made today make them well.

Oops...I did it again

I have not started singing Brittany Spears, but oops...I did it again. I have not kept up with my blog. I have not kept you informed on the fascinating insights into my mind as it wanders across the pages of life. I have no way of knowing or remembering if I do not write it down. It is so easy to let the days get away from us and before you even realize it, weeks have gone by.

Time seems to be relative alright. It relates to how old I am. The older I get, the faster it seems to move. I am not the only one who notices these things, but I cannot talk to myself about them, because, let's face it, that is just crazy, and others do not care about my opinion, yet. One day that may change.

I am trying to find jobs for companies that can help me build a portfolio. I am excited about the prospect of having jobs, and cannot wait to get started, but I am not sure how to start. So, I am trying a new strategy, and if it works, I will post it. If it does not work, well, then I am not hurting anyone by not saying anything.

I am new to this thing called marketing yourself. I am not sure how to go about it. I have asked people but they just say post to Facebook and Twitter. Well, that is all well and good if I have a following, but I do not. I cannot market myself if I cannot get my name out there. I try and I try and I try, but as of yet, no partakers. Every time I think I have a job, I did not have it.

I thought I might have a genealogy blog, but that stopped cold too. I have announced it on Facebook that I have a blog but as of yet, not more than 20 readers at any one time. I only think I made that much because I had a class that linked up to my blog at one time. Of course, they no longer read my blog, and I cannot seem to build an audience. Oh well.

I cannot cry over that or any of my issues if I refuse to buckle down and keep up the blog at least three times a week. I also cannot let other things slip. I must start organizing myself better. I was doing well, and then I quit writing everything down. I am going back to writing everything down. My memory is bad and I must keep my lists and my schedules.

I must also do the tackle box for tomorrow. Robert wants to go fishing and it needs organizing and since I have OCD, I do it.

                                         

Wishes, Hopes, Dreams and Fits of Despair

Kellyanne Conway stated in an interview today with Phillip Bump of the Washington Post that “One wonders how different the political climate would be if consultants and pundits were put under oath before making comments.” This is a profound statement. I read this statement while reading Bump’s article, Donald Trump just off-handedly accused Ted Cruz of a federal crime, and it struck me as a statement is meant to be heard.  

God is the one who used to keep the oath of man while in court, but now, there is no binding oath to God since He is not allowed in the government anymore. So, I am not sure the answers would be different. After all, if they are not bound by an oath on the Bible, then what are they bound by? What makes her think DT would be any more respectful if he was bound.

I am not sure how many times Donald Trump can get away with throwing a tantrum and America allow him to do so. He is derogatory toward women, Muslims, and anyone who does not agree with him, yet we allow him to stay in the race and keep winning. After the violence against protestors, the literal telling that he would pay for their court fees at one such rally, after the degradation of millions of people, you would think America would draw the line. (After all, women are more numerous than men.)

Hillary Clinton may not have been ever charged with a crime, yet she is criminal in her dealings with America and the people that have been in her past. The women that her husband was accused of having sex with never came forward past the accusations. No one has been doing any follow-ups, but rumors have been circulating that they were paid off. AND Benghazi is a subject that should have stopped her progression in the race, but here she is.

Bernie Sanders is a Socialist that will give our country away, but at least, he is honest about it. He is one of the honest few that are part of the governmental establishment. Or, at least as honest as they know how to be.

Ted Cruz is a politician and they are what we are trying to replace. He is the prime choice for the Republican National Convention, yet he is not the frontrunner. 

The RNC has sent me a survey wanting to know how they can get back to the party they used to be. I answered the questions they gave me, but the problem is, they did not ask the proper questions.

I would love to have prayer in school (their question), yet what prayer would be the question (my question). I say all prayer. If there is a person that prays more than one time a day, then all of the children should get the opportunity to pray or not at the same times. This is a compromise that could be reached, yet we have no prayer instead. Just make sure that only groups have led prayers, no group led prayers. No one will pray if they do not want to. Anyone not wanting to pray should be given a break, be respectful of others and sit quietly while prayers are said. What would be wrong with this solution????

I think we like to make things complicated when we want others to think like us, rather than the compromise necessary for peace. Compromise is something that takes away from our purpose and gives purpose to others. We do not like to give into another’s wants when we have wants of our own. If we do, we consider ourselves weak. Is this true?

I firmly believe that we can gain more when we are willing to compromise and willing to give to others. I really wish others would do what they wanted someone to do for them. Maybe everyone would be willing to give. Now, that would be a great thing

Missing This and That

I have so missed writing this blog, even though I am alone in this. I am so glad to be back. I am super ecstatic too. I have been with my family for over a week and now I miss them because I am not able to see them like I was this past week. It has been bittersweet. My daughter has not asked me for much and when she does, I try to be there.

I do not think love has conditions, and the love for my family is no exception. We might not have always been the best of friends, but that is behind us. It is the future that I choose to focus on. This future features us as friends as well as mother and daughter.

I missed her teenage years, and even though I am thankful (LOL), I am also somewhat upset about it. I wanted to be there to help her through the times that she needed me, but I was unable, no need to say why. Now, I am able to be there for her.

I am able to be there for my family and am blessed to watch my posterity grow. I am so grateful and the last week with them was fun. I missed my husband, though. He was home while I was at my family's in another part of the state. This was quite hard, but I had my grandchildren to take the sting out of it.

My daughter's family is my joy and now her family is growing again. No, she is not pregnant, her dog had pups. So, I fell in love with a pup and now I will have a new dog in the house again. Her name is Estre and she will be a ride-a-long dog. I want her to be my dog so I can have one all my own that I train for me.

I have not ever had a dog of my own. Bleech is Robert's dog, no matter what I like to think. Now, I am going to train her to be kenneled while I am gone and she will be at work with me for some time to come. We will see how my customers react, but she will be with me. I pray that I will not have to take her too long, but either way, she will be mine. (She is the only brown one.)

                            

Days of Spring Torture

Many people love this time of year, and I do as well. I just see the pollen in the air, and I see the people weeping with allergies and I wonder how we can like it so much. Then I look and see the beauty, and I feel the air and know, that it is the same in the Fall.

We love the change of the seasons, especially when it is the intense seasons of Winter or Summer. The relief that the changes offer is what I look forward to. I am not a fan of Summer because I cannot cool off, but at least, in Winter, I can dress warm, with layers. Coolness does not come without a machine.

I do love the growing season, though. Fresh vegetables and fruits that are scarce during the Winter come back in the Summer with great bounty. I am able to enjoy better vegetables at better prices or barter to gain other vegetables or fruits. I love living in a small town for just that reason. Grow one thing and your neighbor grow another.

Then you can have extra that you sell so you can afford to grow these things. It is a wonderful time of year. I am praying that I get to grow something this year. You never know with all that is going on. I still have not even cut my grass, much less set up a garden. My son-in-law, that is another story.

He has a garden already planted with plants starting to rise. He is a farmer right! Every year he and my daughter have a beautiful garden with wonderful tasting plants. It is always a blessing to them. I am so grateful that he has done that, and he is good at it too. I always love a good garden.

                                     

Life Will Get You...Grief Sucks

It has been a week and I knew I would be busier, but I never thought I would not be able to write beyond my school projects. I miss being here and letting my thoughts out and sharing them. I enjoy the writing process and I hope you enjoy the reading process.

This week was great knowing that I was going to see my grandchildren, but then my dog died. This sucks. Li'l Man has been with me for 15 years and was one of the best dogs ever. He was a Miniature Doberman Pinscher and thought he was a big one.

He brought a smile to my face every time I saw him because he was so cute. He was so loving and accepting of things. He was an old dog that could not get around very well. He was actually 17 years old. I picked him up and took him to all the areas he needed to go every day. We had a routine and he accepted it.

Now, I hear no bark to call me. There is no cute little dog waiting for me to pick him up. No bright little eyes that let me know he loved me. I am going to miss my little fur baby very much. We buried him under the tree that is in memory of my grandfather. It is only fitting to have them together. I think they would have gotten along well.

I still have another dog, and I do not think I am going to replace Li'l Man with another dog. I have Bleech and he is a handful, even though he is seven. He is a Boxer mix and is a beautiful dog, he is just big. It is extreme when he gets excited so he is trained to do most of his playing outside.

I enjoy my animals, but I will also enjoy the peace and quiet that will come along now that Li'l Man is gone. I will find the silver lining that comes with every trial. Learning, after all, is why we are here.

Being Sick

What is the difference in a male and female human when they are sick? No matter how bad the woman feels, she still has to take care of things. If a man feels ill, they are ill and the world should stop. I know this because I have been sick for a long time, and I can find no sympathy, but yet if my hubby is sick, well he is sick and he should be able to take time and feel better, even if it takes a week.

I am allergic to many plants and animals (and I have animals) so you can imagine my health and my issues. I bring it on myself though because I have literally spoiled my husband beyond repair. I knew not to do it, but I wanted to. Problem is, a female does not get to take a break from spoiling her husband.

I also bring the sick allergies on myself because of my animals. I knew not to get them, but I did it anyway. I have to wonder now as I think about things, do we bring our problems on ourselves by the choices we make? Do we expect a different outcome, even though we knew there was a chance that the outcome would be painful?

It is a painful world and there are times that being sick is worse than others, bit when you are in pain and sick, well then that just sucks. I know that as I keep going, I keep going and when I finally stop, I crash. Today was good up until about three and then I got to feeling ill. There are many illnesss that seem to be floating around on the breezes and in public places, and I have been at a doctor's office all day.

I was not there for myself but for someone else and I was not very apologetic about how tired I was because of helping someone else all day and still working and walking and school and blog and email, and I do surveys that pay me to take them. It takes a good amount of time, but I hope that they will soon start paying off.

I think I will take a nap now.

                                           

Lovely Day

Do you ever wake up and think wow! What a lovely day. I am so glad to be alive! I hope you do. I feel that way today and I think it is because I will be able to be with my Sisters today. I always enjoy my time with them and I love doing things with them.

The birds are singing outside of my door, and the weather is a cool 58. It is clear and beautiful. I want to speak about this weather because very shortly, I will feel like I am under water all of the time and fighting for every breath of air I take. Summer kills me slowly with my asthma issues and my fibromyalgia.

I love being able to wake up and do something because it is warm enough to move yet cool enough not to stifle. I am a morning person and love to get all my work done early.There are many outside projects that need to be done and most are morning projects.

I leave home at 6 am and take my husband to work because we do not have a second vehicle right now. I am back by 7:30 and am on the computer. I am on here until 9:30 but that is about to change. I am going back to my walking and working out in the yard, and that will take my mornings from the computer.

This means that I will lose time on school work so I will have to stay up later or I will have to give up something that I do on the computer. I do surveys so I can make extra money and I have school, of course, and I have eBay sales and then I have my blogs that I love to write. I have email that will need to be checked in three different areas. I have research that will need to be done for my class assignment and final project.

No wonder I am always sitting at my desk on my hiney.
 
                                             

If my garden looked this good, I may sit out ther and do my work. After all, how pretty is this? LOL It looks like a wild yard and that is what I have. Fits me a to a tee.

Time Off for Good Behavior

I do not take many days off and still enjoy the time. Usually, if I have off, I am busy doing other things that need to be done. TODAY, was a different day. I enjoyed my day off and I do not feel guilty. I worked hard last night to get caught up in school so I could enjoy my time with my husband. It was such a nice reprieve from the monotony that is my days.

I love going to school and writing, but it is so nice to be able to take time and do whatever one wants. Well, you ask, what did I do? How did I enjoy my day off? I went fishing. Trout fishing on the Little Eastatoe River is so fun and relaxing. You just walk up to the hole you want to fish. No need for a boat and not as many snakes as downstate SC. 

I admit, I have had better days fishing, since the only thing that bit was the little ones, but it was still a good day. My husband and I came home after fishing and grilled out steaks and alligator tail, and then we took a nap. Today has been a very good day. I needed the time off and just did not realize it. It is funny how things work out.

My husband insisted that we go today and if he had not, I would have still felt like I was slowly losing ground. I felt like I could not get anything accomplished, but today has given me the chance to see, I can still accomplish things and take time for me. I am one that forgets to take time for their selves, and my husband keeps that side of me in check.

Thank God for fishing and Husbands

Drivers and Driving

I have to ask... do you drive selfishly? Do you cut people off in traffic lanes? Do you race ahead in a lane that is closed so you can be ahead of others waiting in the traffic? If you do any of these, then you may be a selfish driver. It is so easy to become selfish when we are driving and when we are in a hurry, even more so.

Our days are busy but that should not give us an excuse to be ugly drivers. Would you act like you do when you drive, in public? Would you cut in line at the grocery store? No, most people would not. So why then do we act like selfish jerks when we drive? What ever happened to road coutesy? After being in traffic all day and finding creative ways to keep my cool, I have decided we are rude and selfish.

My husband always tells me you can tell a person by the way they drive. I really hate to think that we are all that angry and rude. I meet people and do not see the selfishness, but get them behind the wheel of a car, and they become a different person. I know one person that is so sweet they would give you the shirt and shoes they are wearing, but they drive like they are the only ones that matter.

I am not sure what causes this but I do know that I am aware of it and I try to be who I am all of the time. I am a courteous driver that gives way but that just gets me run over. I do not know why we cannot all slow down and maybe rush hour would not be so vicious.  That was funny wasn't it?

                                        

March Madness

I know why it is considered March Madness, it is becase the month drives you mad! LOL No I know, it is because of basketball and the tourney's that are being played. I personally have problems with March, though. My allergies start up and my energy goes down because of it. I start yearning to go plant, but it is not time.

It is important to wait until Good Friday, but March gives me cabin fever. I love to go and get dirty in the garden. That was when I had time, though. I am so busy that I barely find time to write my blogs and do my calling in Church. I find that the more time I try to find, the more it slips away. I used to think that the days would never go by, now I think time will never slow down.

I have found that I want to change the time, then leave it. Wouldn't that be great? In March this year, we will enjoy DST and Good Friday. This Means that Easter is the last Sunday of the month. March will be a wonderful month because of this. I will not have to have cabin fever for long. My husband and I would love to have a garden this year, but I may have to rely on the kindness of others to fill my fresh pantry.

The garden is imprtan, but I have a yard from...well you know. My grass is hay. I live near a cow field and the hayseeds have infested my yard so that my grass is thick and tall. IT IS HAY, not grass! This means that I now have to have a bush hog to keep my yard up. This also means that I will have to push cut my grass from now on.

I used to ride it, but the grass kept wearing out my lawn mower. I have not had much luck with the yard. I have given up before on my yard. I pray that this year, I will be able to keep it up, and do everything else I have to keep up with. I am sure that if I plan my time, I can accomplish all things necessary.

I just have to plan, right?

                                               

Family Fued

I have often wondered how they can call it Family Feud anymore, then I realized it is because they are still families that play. The thing is, the answers that are given are not family friendly. It is so sad that the answers are so crude that there are times I want to cringe and I am old.

Maybe that is what my problem is. I have become old. I see the things that are put up on that board and I am ashamed but I am so glad that I do not live in Georgia. They ask the hundred for answers to the questions and the answers will, at times, make your hair curl. I see nothing wrong with saying certain things, but the way it is put up on that board will make a sailor blush.

I enjoy watching it and play with it every night, but they have made it so different from when it started that I wonder if it is the same show.

I know this seems like an inane topic, but it is so much better than the topic of what is going on in our country and with the Republicans. The way things are going, there will be no Republican Party when the dust settles. So, I find that inane topics have their place.

I also wonder how I can possibly get the numbers up and the readers to keep coming back. I know I am not here every day, but I am here enough to know that I have a small following and no real +1's.  I will be here as much as I can and I will keep coming back, even if it is an inane topic because I like writing and I like being here.

South Carolina Road Money

I have lived in South Carolina for 44 years now. I have grown up here and I bet some of these roads have not been paved since I moved here. No Really. They are in terrible shape, and I am so proud to say that our government in South Carolina has decided to use the surplus of money that we have instead of taxing us again.

I really wondered why there was a debate about this. There was over one billion dollars extra, and the government wanted to tax us on gas, again. What was the money for? This extra that they had lying around? It was for whatever, so they wanted to what? I am not sure, but I am so glad to say that they did not give themselves a raise.

I am sure that was on the agenda, but from what I understand, that changed because of a radio talk show. It is on in the mornings on 94.5 WYRD. It is called the Tara Show and she said today that because of the publicity that was given to this matter, the vote was to fix the roads with the excess money.

It is so wonderful to have heard the government of a state do right by their constituents. A penny tax increase may not seem like much in the beginning, but that is every single time you go to the pump you pay. That is on every gallon, every single time. Over time, that would add up. I drive a Prius and it would not hurt too much, but I drive one because I cannot afford gas in a different car.

Our roads are horrendous and that is why we allowed the government to raise the gas tax in the beginning. The idea that they wanted to raise it again after just raising it 17 cents is crazy. I might be a little slow on the uptake at times, but excess money should pay for wht is needed, and this time it did.

WOOOHOOO! It is a good day in South Carolina.

   
                  

Eclectic Thoughts

I have found that my mind is all over the place and I am not sure if I have an issue that I want to speak on. It is all about the politics that are going on, and to tell the truth, I am tired of hearing and writing about it. I am so worried that I just want it all to go back and start over.

That cannot and will not happen, but it does not stop me from dreaming. I was reading a post from my daughter about how 83% of the elected government is up for vote. Well, if you do not like them, vote them out. Problem is, we voted them in and we do not have much to choose from to vote new one's in. What do we do about this? I am not sure.

I am changing topics. I have been looking into indexing for genealogy and was reading how we are giving the identity thieves a way to steal identities. I find this disheartening and sad, just truly sad. So many vibrant minds are wasted in illegal activities. I wonder how we can possibly reach those minds and give them the right track?

I find this to be a better thought than to think that we are letting them waste. Help the youth that are using their minds to do illegal activities and teach them in real-world areas that their talents could be used. The government takes the best hackers and hires them to keep out other hackers, so why not do the same type of gain for those that do other talented crimes?

Is that an oxymoron? Talented Criminal? It really is a truth, though. If the food was worse and the rehabilitation better, maybe we would do better with our youth. It is a thought.

Surprise Surprise Surprise

I do not know why people are surprised that Donald Trump will not disavow the KKK's head man and the support that he wants to give. Donald Trump (DT) has not lied or hid anything about who he is. He has put his whole attitude out there, and the American people still stand up for him.

There is something about a person that tells it like it is and does not apologize for what he says. I worry because there are so many out there saying that he is not conservative (nope he is not), and that he is not going to win the race. Well, I sure wish people would get their heads out of the sand and wake up. He is winning because we are tired of the establishment. That is all. (Funny thing? We elected the establishment.)

He is saying what America feels. This is the day and age of feelings and making sure none are hurt. Well, DT is so not PC and that is what is appealing. People want to say they do not care anymore, but if that is true, it takes away what has made America so great. We are a tough people that have ancestors that fought for the right to be here and the right to be happy while we are here. We are a people that have stood up for rights across the world, making sure that others who wish to enjoy the same freedoms get to, or at least, get to try. (That is another conversation for another day.)

We are a people that said we alone make decisions for ourselves. We have slowly given up small rights, like the right to pray. There is a right to those who do not pray, so why not for those who do? (Deeper conversation on this can wait.) Our allowance of the erosion of our small dignity rights has brought us ot the point that DT looks good to us as a president.

A man that has anger issues and no experience handling them will have access to the power of the military. He will be our Commander in Chief. This is a very disturbing thought. I am sure he would not anger the powers of the world and then use our power. He would hold himself above pettiness and get to the root of the issue and work on it.

I am sure he will be a responsible president and keep our relations with the foreign entities open and fair dealing. I am sure he would help balance our budget and yet keep America strong.

These are the things and more that he will have to do. He cannot deal with anyone without losing his temper, what is he going to do with people that have hostages or that threaten us? Are we going to be part of a bigger war?

Too many scary scenarios here. Then we have Hillary Clinton (HC) who is a Democrat that has been there before, She helped run the White House when her Husband was there. She knows the ins and outs of the government since she was a Senator and the Secretary of State (SoS). This is where the problems come in. SoS HC was part of the Benghazi issue, and has been known to have classified information on her personal email server, even after she said she did not. Even information on Benghazi and the threat that pertained to it.

This is public information and  can be found almost anywhere on the Internet, yet we choose to ignore these facts and elect her as the top runner in the Democratic race. I guess running against a self-disclosed Socialist has to be the reason. We are not that ignorant, right? BUT, look who we have to vote from. Maybe we are.

Republican and Democrat or Independent

During this presidential race, I have heard nothing but ugly. I listen to talk radio and watch the news, so I know what the public are saying. That is the problem, what they are saying.

I understand having a candidate that you want in the White House, what I do not understand is not voting because your candidate did not win the primary. Not voting in the election because your candidate did not win is RIDICULOUS. 

Not voting for say, Donald Trump, because he was the one who won the party is like voting for the other side. You might as well be a Democrat and vote for the Democrats if you do not vote at all. It is your right as an American to vote.

Freedoms that we fought for are crumbling and if we do not vote, then we are giving a right. I do not understand how a person can say they are an Amercian and not want to vote because they are, basically, throwing a temperature tantrum?! We are a society founded on certain rights, not voting gives them away.

I cannot imagine how the people that fought for the right to vote are feeling when they hear these fanatics say they are giving up that right. I know that my candidate will not make the cut and I will have to vote for someone that I did not want to, but I will still vote. Will you?

Please go to the polls and vote. No matter what, you have to at least try.

                                         

It Is Done!

The primary is over and I for one am blown away. It Is Done. We have thrown our hitch to the Trump wagon here in South Carolina. That can only mean one thing; we are tired of politicians. We have a great one in Rubio, but we here in South Carolina do not want to have  a politician in the White House. Personally, I can understand, but that is not reality.

How in the Sam Hill is he going to keep us from being blown to smithereens? He is going to curse someone out and they are going to open up a can of you know what on us. In my opinion, the rabble rouser will do just that. He will incite problems that are going to outshine the horrible truths in this nation. We are living off of GMO food and we use food to create gas to put in our cars.

These issues do not get looked at, and in order to keep our eyes averted, there is the ideal of an America that will sit behind its wall and be in no wars, bust instead will sit at home being American. I am not quite sure what people are thinking, but we need someone who is going to help us deal with our issues, not close ranks and bury our head.

Ignoring the issues of today, how will we deal with tomorrow if we do not have someone there that understands what it is like for those that work and worry over the issues. What about farmers? What about cotton mills? Are we going to ship all of our cotton industry overseas?

My six-year-old niece asked me about things made in China and Mexico. I told her I did not know why it was that way, other than epople wanted to be richer than they already are. Then I thought about it, if we want to build a wall to keep Mexico out, why do we send out cotton industry across the border?

Seems to me that if you want something one way, it has to be both ways. Either we want Mexico to stay in Mexico or we want freedom to deal with Mexico. We are electing the craziest candidates. Makes me wonder, can we write in Howdy Doody?

Still in Politics

It seems that if you ever enter the world of politics, you never leave. Just like a career politician, once I started on this path, I am here for life. After all, there is always another person that needs to be looked at for a public office. I am going to do the best I can, once this election is over, to stay out of the political arena.

So, Donald Trump, the man that keeps telling us he is rich, and he is smart, and he is all that and a bag of chips, with the crumbles. I am wondering if we are going to end up with just crumbles in that bag? Well, let's see.

He started out for abortion, and changed his mind and became pro-life. This shows he is not too full of himself that he cannot admit a change. He wants to wall us off, is that just on Mexico side, or is that all away around the borders? Is that wall to keep them out, or us in? Now, as far as anything else goes, he does not seem to have much to say on these issues except some remarks about how he ahs evolved in his thinking like Reagan did.

I am a Republican, and I know our country was a military powerhouse, but that is because so much money was spent on defense. I did not prosper so much under the Ragan regime. I did, however, prosper under the Clinton regime. Like they are rulers instead of puppets. I am not sure how Clinton did it, but he really got us, or people like me, a little extra money in the pocket.

I have no money in my pocket, and no money as extra to help anyone else. It would be nice if Donald Trump could help us all be rich like him. I will work for it, won't you? Either way, I am still scared about the vote that is coming up.

    

SC Primary and the Damage

I live in SC and have had the unfortunate time to listen to the primary commercials and the inundation of calls and the craziness of the people, and I can say I do not like it. The commercials take over and are anything but helpful. They bash the other candidate, that is their own party mate, but yet leave the field wide open for the opposition. I am frustrated to say the least. I used to think I was a Republican, but I have to wonder if there is even a real Republican party.

I cannot think this is the way the party wanted to be represented in our society. I am not sure what the Republicans even stand for anymore. They have no real platform, they are all just busy trying to tear each other down. I wish I knew what they were trying to accomplish with this ugly battle that was had here on the stage for all the world to see.

There is no cohesiveness anymore in the party. Even Hillary Clinton and Bernie Sanders are leaving the Republicans alone. They know that the Republicans are doing the best job of it, so why bother to do any more damage. After all, I am not sure that the party will survive if Trump wins the Republican Primary.

They all hate him, yet he is loved by the American people. I have been investigating the other candidates, maybe it is time I look at Trump's platform. I know that his supporter thinks that we should not vote our theoligical standards, which I cannot see how we can do that. If I did, I would not vote because I do not agree with a lot of what the candidates say on abortion and immigration.

No one even speaks of the GMO processed foods and the disappearance of the farming industry. This scares me, but others do not seem to even notice. If we grew more food, we would have more oxygen in the air and plants to fight the global warming stuff. These fake foods cause me a lot of issues and I am not the only one.

There are many people that do not even know that they are allergic to these foods, and they are sick. Many do not recognize that they eat these foods, and since it is so new, how do people know what it does to their bodies? Scientists creating our food in a lab is wrong on many levels. But this is not even an issue on the radar of our candidates. Maybe I am the only one that thinks about these things.  
 

Another Politician

I am in dumbfounded astonishment. There is so much junk out there that we cannot find the truth without being a researcher. I want to know what they stand for. What is there motto or statement of intent. I have researched the issues and Ted Cruz. The page that gives his issues lists nothing about abortio, stem cell research, science worries of any kind. Like these issues do not matter, or maybe they don't. I and my husband may be the only ones that worry about the way our food is being made.

I do know that Ted Cruz says he is against abortion and will investiate Planned Parenthood, but I had to explicitly Google the question. The list was about Defense, Cuba, North Korea, China, Immigration but nothing to do with how we are going to live. At least Bernie Sanders wants us to live for free off of the rich.

Now if you adde Ted Cruz Issues, there is a boatload, but still nothing about Genetically Modified Foods or the like. So these issues will have to be laid to the side because no one seems to ask any questions about them.

Ted Cruz has a stance on many issues, like gun control and foreign policy but no statement of intent like Bernie Sanders has put out. We at least know how he wants to create his Socialist Society, but no statement from Cruz summarizing his opinions. So we must look and see that he is  against immigration to the point that we will be walled in. Biometric doodads and such saying that this creates National Security. Are we going to wall off Canada or just Mexico?

At least, he will let us keep our guns. This is a good thing since we need to protect ourselves in a crisis. He wants us to have a flat tax, which I wholeheartedly agree with. A 10% tax rate for ALL Americans is fair and just.

His idea of less government encroachment sounds good. Not using Executive Actions, or Orders will be nice. Letting the State run its government will also be nice, but can it happen now after the laws are already passed? We are watched by the government in all that we do and I cannot see them giving up their hold.

His ideas sound good, but I wonder how much he can do. Don't you?


                                               

Dagnab Politics

I am starting to do research because I am so fearful of who will be elected president. I want to vote and say I did this or I did not do this. If I want to complain about the situation, then I must be part of the situation, so to speak. I also want to make sure that I am part of the solution. This is why I am starting my research on the candidates.

Bernie Sanders: Self-proclaimed Socialist. Want to tax the rich so much that the poor (me) are taken care of. The problem with this? There will no longer be any rich to run the corporations and such. If the person that is not willing to work gets everything free or handed to them, how are they going to know how to contribute to society? And if they get everything for free, why should others work for them? Seems to me that this plan is doomed to fail because you cannot give away everything, then expect them to start working for itor expect others to keep paying for it.

This idea seems so good and alost utopian, but it is not feasible. Making sure everyone is taxed the same and paid the same creates a country of nothings. Where would the drive be if I did nto have to work for it? I have free food, free school, (for what?) and free health care. Now that sounds great. Who pays for it? Those that went to school on loans, and those that what? Own a business? Who is going to do that when they cannot get people to work?

When an idea sounds too good to be true, it usually is. Socialism is not a bad thing; it is just a pipe dream. I do not mind working, but I want others to work too. If we all worked together and pulled our fair share, then there would be no problems with helping those that cannot help themselves. I have a problem with those that can work, but refuse to do so.

Would he drug test the reipients of the resources he is providing? After all, if everything is handed to you and you do not have to work, what do you do with your idle time but get high? That is what happens npw, so I ma sure this will happen in the future. I know not all recipients are like that, but there seems to be a runmning trait in this class.

I knwo people on food stamps and government assisstance, and they are wonderful, hard-working people that give the clothes off their back to you. Then I know some that have stated they have childen because it pays more than a job. This is a sad fix that Bernie Saners has offered. I hope people think about the  real issues and vote the way America needs, not the way they want to live, free from repsonsibility.

               

                                    

AHHHH!!!

I think I am going to run screaming into the night, and let the men in the white coats carry me away. If I check out of the real world, maybe I can deal with the future world that is coming. I am terrified of this future we have allowed ourselves to create. The political arena is a joke. We have elected jokers and tyrants to the political seats that have the power over us. They control everything,

Now, they want to make it mandatory for us to get children's shots, even if the parent's say no, and the pediatricians now are required to give children mandatory mental evaluation tests. I am in fear of this. I know I would fail one of those tests, yet I am not a menace. I take medication by choice, but at 13, a teenager should not be judged by this test. At 13, we are all crazy. I cannot imagine a future of our leaders on drugs, controlled by the pharmacy companies.

No one seems to be looking at this picture the way I do. They already have most of the children on some type of drug because they are ADD or ADHD. I remember taking away sugar and having no problems because I disciplined my daughter. But now, our children are judged to be this because they are not disciplined for their behavior. If we do anything besides time out, we are judged to be unfit parents.

Control is slowly being taken away from families, and families are slowly becoming extinct. It is a scary thought, but as we change our views on family, we have changed the dynamic. Changing the dynamic, changes the way we reproduce. Allowing this change has created horrific questions that I am not willing to look at quite yet. Reproduction and advancement was once a God given right, but now seems to be falling into the arena of political contol.

Once again, we allow contol over our lives, and our most intimate rights. What will we allow next?
It may be aquestion worth asking. If only people would.

Drugs

I have a question, and it is deep. Where is the line between addiction and necessity? I know a person that is in so much pain that he cannot function without his medication. It is an opiate and he has to have them every four hours. His pain never goes away, so he takes more than prescribed. Is this addicted? I am not sure.

There are times that I have to take my medicine more than prescribed because I am in such pain. I have been known to take two at one time in order to keep the pain away. I am a firm believer in drugs. Does this make me addicted? I cannot go without it, but that is because the pain will become unbearable with the fibro. The pain is not kept in check very well, but without the medicine, the pain becomes like body neuropathy.

So, again, is that addicted? No. I need the medicine and I will take it until it no longer works and then I will get something stronger. I cannot deal with the pain, but I can deal with the drugs, even the side effects. Walking a line of need or addiction, I am not sure, but I do know that without, I am like poison to myself.

There are other ways that I keep the pain away too. I have to supplement my medication with other medication. Is this a start to addiction? I am not sure. I just know that I will take my drugs and not say anything about anybody taking drugs. After all, I may be addicted.

It is a vicious cycle that drugs do to me, though. I was always a happy person, then I developed fibromyalgia. Then I started taking medication for it. The medicine causes me to have headaches, so there is that medicine. That is two, then it causes me to be depressed. So, now I am in pain, depressed, and have constant headaches.

Now I have to take drugs for the depression, the pain, the headaches; all caused by a fall at a person's house. AND I had to pay for the chiro visit after the fall. Good deeds and all. I would do it over again, I just would not fall.

Even though I have an excuse, does it make it right for me to take my medicine differently than prescribed? I have talked to my doctor about it and get leeway about it, but that does not excuse it, or does it?

                
   
                                 

Friends/Family

I w.ant to speak a little on friends that become family and family that are friends. There is a great distinction between the two. The ability to have family that become friends is great and almost normal, but the friends that become family, that is indeed rare.

Friends are quick to change course, and family have a tendency to be fickle, but when you get both in one, that is a wonderful boon. I have not ever been able to really experience this until I met my sisters in Church. These Sisters give me a rare look into what it means to be a part of that. I have a sister in blood that is a great friend, and one that is a sister, but to have a relationship that makes me want to cry with the love I feel for them? That is definitely something new for me.

I had friends that I trusted with my life and my deepest secrets. They taught me to be more careful with my secrets and my friendship. The need to share was my own, and it was my bad. I will not ever trust like that again, but I still love and give. I know if I need someone, I have a Sister I can call, but they can also call me.

I know they are there for me, whereas my blood sisters are the bomb. I have one that allows me to walk in and out of her house constantly. I so appreciate her and all that she is. I have not ever met another like my sister, and I am so blessed to have her. She is amazing and is my friend. I have the best relationship with her, and I am so grateful that she allows it.

I have been blessed to have both in my life, but I have also been blessed to learn lessons from friends. These lessons did not scar me, but they did teach me to keep my business, my business. I appreciate that because I know now not to overshare. Like I said, that was my fault. I learned.

Selling Yourself

Well we are here today, and I want to talk about eBay. This website has been so great. I have tried Craig's List and I do not like it. Each and every time I have tried to sell something on there, they try to scam me. I was going to say I was scammed, but I did not fall for the scam. It would have been nice to sell all of my Fenton, or the coins that I have listed on  eBay. I know that it takes time to sell and establish yourself as a good seller, but on  Craig's List they allow sellers and buyers that are not upstanding.

I am a person that tries to be ethical, moral, and upstanding in all that I do. I try to deal fairly with my fellow man and not all sellers or buyers do. On eBay they use a system that only allows buyers and sellers that are honest to do business. There are is a rating system that allows one to rate the seller or the buyer, and there is a way that you are contacted in your emails that allows you to be honest and not get scammed.

The money that one uses to pay for the product and the way one's correspondence is only through eBay is a security measure that I appreciate. At Craig's List I was contacted outside of their system. each and every time I listed something. Needless to say, I have not listed much with them.

Learning that I have a bone in my body that wants to bid, and try to beat the other people bidding, let's me know that I should never gamble. I enjoyed the thrill of trying to beat the machine, so to speak. I was bidding, and actually was willing to go over budget, and this scared me. I believe that I could be addicted to the game if I went to Las Vegas. I think this is a good reason to stay away. What about you?